Writing this there is more good than bad in my experiences. My challenge is to forget about the negative part of my work team and make use of the positive and happy part.
As per the title I so often feel invisible – especially when I say good morning to one of the team and I’m ignored. Or a colleague walks past me into the office next to my desk and proceeds to discuss with the Dr a patient I am the Case Manager for and neither the Dr or the nurse includes me in the conversation. Not once but again and again. Time for positive focus with people who know what being in a team really means.
The time I began to disappear
was when I joined the team with a title unclear.
No orientation ever occurred when joining this team,
nor were member introductions important it did seem.
A place for me to sit was not a high priority given,
told to take a desk already occupied -would I be forgiven?
Not an ideal start sat in some one else’s spot,
then when the team saw how much stuff I had -such a lot!
Big welcomes were given by some of the team people,
others showed not a response even simple.
From the beginning some team members walked right past as I read,
and not ever a ‘good morning’ or ‘hi’ was ever said.
I always spoke a greeting to every one each day to begin,
but this did not seem to change a thing.
Those who ignored me and chose to pass me by,
when i asked how their home visits went their reply was not nice;
shrugs and ‘OK’ was the answer I was given,
heads down I was ignored and left feeling shriven.
Information about my patients is not being communicated to me;
my frustrations, caring and compassion it seemed no one could see.
But holding emotions inside was causing me pain,
what was the point and was there a gain?
I approached these individuals with a smile and care,
Again they ignored me and turned away on their chair.
Professional at all times I offered education instead,
using email, print outs and at meetings nurse led.
Once more it seemed my efforts had not occurred,
not once any acknowledgement from those who had heard.
Discussions aplenty with the 2 leaders in the team
‘why Toni we don’t know what you mean?’
I am the one with the problem I have been told,
they had heard I am often bossy and bold;
‘why don’t you consider the many world problems bigger than this?
your issues are nothing, don’t be such a ‘miss’.’
Not their exact words but they may as well been
for some time I honestly did not want to be seen.
For me time to think so why do I waste,
so much energy on those who show poor taste.
if they don’t want to have any thing to do with me,
their action is theirs I will leave them be.
The other team members who have shared their soul
by showing their respect for our patients, myself and my role;
they deserve the focus of all things that are good,
and the reward of job satisfaction as well as good food!
the treasures I work with are the ones whom I must focus,
so look out you lovelies for the Toni new positive locus;
you have each demonstrated you are definitely not a villain!
A lesson to be learnt once more from me,
stay away from those idiots who pretend they can’t see!